Lady bugs and butterflies scare the living crap outta me! I’m not talking “oh yuck there’s a butterfly” I’m talking full on running away arms in the air freaking out scared! I know I know what the heck right? I couldn’t tell you how this started or why it is but it is, so I’ve accepted it and I’m not afraid to share it! What I am hesitant to share is that I’m scared for my future if I don’t make some permanent changes fast and I've decided I'm no longer accepting this fear and I'm going to bloody well change it!
If you’re still with me I’ll introduce myself! I’m Alicia and I’ve never blogged before nor did I ever think I would, so be patient with me and feel free to toss in some advice if I’m doing something I shouldn’t! Ok where was I...
The names Alicia, I’m 26 years old and married to an amazing man (I’ll fill you in on him later!) I’m an Administrative Manger at a Driving School and I love my job! However what I don’t love is I sit on my butt all day at a computer. This brings me into why I decided to start this fancy little blog. I’ve always been classified as the “curvy girl” I was never considered chubby or fat from what I can remember. I've never looked like what I weigh; people have always said I'm solid as a rock like my Dad, so I never worried. But in recent years things took a turn for the worst. The pounds were piling on and what used to be curves began to slowly disappear. I tried all sorts of diet tricks and plans and would lose some and give up and pile on double what I had lost. But I remember the day I realized I needed to make a change.
I woke up like any other day, went through my usual routine and started breakfast. I decided to step on the scale. Let me just say this was both a bad idea and one of the best things I've ever done. I'm patiently waiting for the numbers to settle on what they want to be, not paying much attention at all...they stop flashing. I swear to you my heart skipped a beat and I stopped breathing for a second. I stood in the bathroom and I cried and cried and cried. How had I let myself get this out of control? A million questions and excuses played in my mind and then it hit me. NO FREAKIN' MORE! I'm done doing this to myself.
Now let’s fast forward to today, 7 months later! I made a commitment to myself that dreadful day to work my butt of and get myself back on track and live a healthy lifestyle. I've spent countless hours reading, watching and learning all sorts of things about health, weight loss and life. My Fitness Pal has been an amazing tool throughout these 7 months and I've made some pretty amazing friends in such a short time. I've lost 38 pounds so far and I've got a long way to get to my "Ultimate Goal" but I've learned to take notice in the smaller changes in between my starting point and finishing point. I'll be honest throughout the past months I've fallen off of the "wagon" more than once but I always get back on! This has actually become a common thing I say to myself...
Ok back to my fear of my future! I know that if I hadn't made the decision to make a change 7 months ago I would be writing my own death sentence essentially. I'm still terrified that I will get every health problem out there related to obesity. I'm afraid I won’t be able to have kids one day. There are just so many scenarios and things that could happen if I don't continue on the path to a healthier lifestyle. I don't like to share how scared I am with many people because frankly so many people just don't understand. And there is nothing worse than hearing "oh Alicia you're overreacting, you're just fine" ...excuse me?! People don't just weigh what I weigh and get away with it and when it comes to my health and future I don't think I could ever "overreact" enough!
I hope you're still with me at this point and thank you if you are! With this blog I hope to share my goals, achievements and every struggle with you along the way. It's not an easy road to travel but it’s one I strongly believe we can't do alone.
Cheers!
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