I'm not sure how many times one can say they are ready for a change. Or how many times you can look at yourself in the mirror and make a promise to yourself that you're worth the hard work and dedication. But 6 weeks ago or so I had a breakdown.
I cried for the women I used to be and longed for the women I hoped to become. I've always wanted to get healthy and shed some pounds. It was never about being skinny or fitting in some tiny 2 piece at the beach. It was always about become the healthiest version of myself. But somehow I had lost track of the confidence I once had in myself. I had lost the ability to look in the mirror and tell myself I looked beautiful today. I just couldn't do it, I hated the girl staring back at me so I avoided mirrors. I avoided confronting the fact that things were getting out of hand and I no longer had control of myself. Life was busy and I blamed it all on other things. But then I broke, I lost it and I couldn't keep it in anymore. I couldn't pretend I was happy with myself and just needed to get healthy. I need to get serious, no more pretending.
Through the support of my amazing husband, friends and family and I've been able to take back control. I have been able to face myself in the mirror every morning and I feel amazing about where I am headed. I've started a journey with a whole new way of eating, an amazing coach who I meet with weekly and am trying amazing new foods constantly! I'm beyond excited for where I will be at 1 year from now!
I didn't plan on starting up this blog again...mostly because I had forgotten about it! But I think I'm ready to track this journey and not stumble on this post 4 years from now and regret the time I've wasted not working on myself!
xo A
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